What Causes Me The Most Anxiety — A Personal Story

“We need to talk.” I immediately had anxiety. My stomach started doing flips, I got cold and clammy, and I couldn’t focus for the rest of the day. But what this meant was I was now in a high anxious state until the conversation happened.

I knew what was coming. I knew exactly what was coming. I had blown him off enough to know that I wasn’t interested anymore. I have my mind set somewhere else and it’s obvious I’m not into it.

However that doesn’t stop my anxiety.

4 hours later I let him “Do the dumping” I didn’t want to mess with his ego or pride and do it first. I didn’t want to make myself feel bigger than by blowing him off again and then letting it fizzle out. The proper thing to do is to let him tell me I’m not meeting his expectations. (ugh, that word.)

“Hey I didn’t want to do this over the phone, I’m into you, but I don’t think it’s going to work. You never seem to have time for me and you don’t really put in the effort that I’m looking for”

That’s true. I don’t put in the effort. The truth is, I’m tired of having to put in the effort all the time. Since when do men like to be pursued this much? When exactly did chivalry die?

Apparently I didn’t respond in the way he expected either.