The Fastest Journey.

I’ve never been more sure, or unsure about anything in my life.

Whether it was for a day, a week, a year, or forever. I knew — this man, is supposed to be in my life.

You know how when they say “when you know, you know?” Well, Between something telling me to wait even though he was nearly 40 minutes late to our first date and accidentally telling him I want him and not meaning it sexually to his face in the middle of the night, we shared looks and hand grazes that felt so natural and normal that if you didn’t know we had just met, you would have no idea. I knew I was supposed to be there at that moment, at that time.

I could get used to this.

I was smitten. Completely shaken out of my usual routine of drinks, date, date, day trip, dinner at their house. He looked at me with such bliss in his eyes. He was on a high of being a new place with a new person and it was all so bright. Was this just temporary? I have so much fear surrounding falling for someone that I can’t fathom it and now, I’ve met someone who showed me that things really can be that simple.

I wasn’t looking for anything. I’m still not. It’s a strange feeling, really. I just wanted a fun night out with a cute boy and a glass of wine. Now, I have a thing, I don’t know what to call it because I don’t want to call it anything. Because I believe in what is for me, will find me. And this mindset has gotten me to the happiest moments of my life. So before this continues — what is for me will be for…